Forgiveness is amazing.

Thats all I feel I can say right now.

Help Me.

I am in need of a place or places to stay Starting in April or March.

My parents have decided that my mother and siblings will move away. My dad will stay near by his work and we will save a fortune by not having a mortgage. The actual figures are in perecents:

Paycheck that goes to Mortgage: 65%
Living expenses: 35%+

We are in a very deep rut. If my family moves off somewhere cheap, and my dad and I spend as little as possible, it will hopefully look like this:

Paycheck that goes to Mortgage: 0%
Rent for family: 10-15%
Living expenses for me and my dad: 5-10%
Living Expenses for family: 20%

See the difference? Worst case scenario it's 55%. If we can keep up saving 45% of our paycheck we can save up for a big deposit and even a down payment (we make a lot of money our debt in the house is sucking us dry though) thats around here in the bay area.

I need to finish school. Otherwise I won't be able to go anywhere decent for upper division study. I'd lose my hole head start on school if I stopped or went somewhere else. If anyone can take me up for long periods of time, like say 2 weeks at a time. And if I could keep that up between family and friends then I'd be set.

I'm easy to take care of, my parents will send you money, I have a bike and I'll be getting transportation passes so I can get around, I'll also get a job so I can stay out of your hair as much as possible. I just need a place to sleep and do homework. If you live in Mt View, Palo Alto or Los Altos that would be ideal. I'd need a place to set up my computer, and other then that I have no special needs.

God Bless

Well, I just got back from tahoe.

Worst family vacation ever.

Well, only family vacation... heh.

Basically,
My mom and I had a huge fight, my grandpa threw tortillas at me (for no apperent reason) and we never left the hotel other then to eat because the Pub Grub (pronounced "Pube Grube") was grosssssssssssss!

Dang.
It's been a whole year since I've been back, and overall it's been great. I've gotten to make new and better connections with people, I've made friends and relationships that I wish I had had earlier in my life.

I'd like to make a special thanks to all of my firends, family and chruch leadership that has helped me and made this one of the most important years of my life.

Now for the bad news-

We're moving. We don't don't know when or where, but we are.

All I have to say is:

Kelsey is an Angel :)
Evan is an Absent :P
And Spillunkin is a level 2 freshman XD
and it wasn't my baby ;)

Today... right now... I miss him more then ever. I didn't think I could miss him. Not after what he did. I just wish I could get rid of this burden. It's so awful. I feel like everyday that I'm apart from him is so painful, like I could scream out in the brightest and best time.

The day after I found out... I was so torn up inside I had to find a way to distract myself. I'm lucky I was at Great America that day with such awesome friends, otherwise I would have lost my mind completely.

I decided on that day that I would focus more on friends I knew had the right heart... but I thought I could trust Avery like that, too. Now I feel like I cannot trust anybody. The only person I can trust is Jesus Christ, and everyone else is so scummy that if I take any part with them I'll just end up being hurt all over again. Everyone is going to stab me in the back, thats just a fact I have to accept.

Prove me wrong